Current mood:	drained
Current music:	Seven Wiser - Losing Grip

When the World Goes Splat
So what do you do when it suddenly hits you how much you're gonna have to sacrifice to have the life you want, the job you want, to do that which will make you feel like you are contributin to society? Well, these last couple of days I have really started to realize that almost everything I really want in life will have to be put on hold to make room for the current goal I am chasin. I will more than likely not have a gf anytime soon, I will more than likely lose the majority of my friends due to me not havin time to maintain the friendships, and I will more than likely lose myself and what makes me be to changing to be what I have to be for my job. So basically everythin I cling to in life I will have fly right out the window. Hmmm, seems like this could be one of the roughest decisions I have ever made in that I will stick to it even though I know how much I sacrifice for one job. Someday I will be an old man and I will look back at the life I lived and then I can question myself and ask, "Was it really worth what you gave up?" I only hope that when I get to that point my answer is yes. As it stands right now I don't know if I think it is worth losin everythin I am right now, but I wouldn't change the decisions I have made for any amount of money. I guess all I can do is hold on and try not to become too much a man that no one can recognize from whom I once was....

-Josh

"This job is a lonely job...throw your ruck on and walk for miles by yourself...That's just what we do"