Current mood:	restless
Current music:	Seven Dust - Crucified (along with other stuff)

Breath In...Breath Out...Breath In....Breath Out....Breath Out...Breath Out...
So I guess it has been a really long time since my last post. Lots of things have happened since then. Whether or not I wanted to I have gotten semi good at Arabic. I personally hate the language and wonder how God allowed such a miserable language to be created. I figure he knows better than me though so eh what can I do. I'm no longer going to be staying at Ft.Bragg. Guess that is good and bad. Bad because I have to leave everything I have known for 10 and attempt to excel in an environment where nothing is familiar or comfortable. I've got some good friends goin with me though so I hope to be ok. The good thing about leavin is that I will get to show what I made of. I will get to do my job and prove that I am as good as I wanna think I am. I'm trainin for a marathon right now. Kinda slacked off some lately but gettin back on it this week. Been doin a new workout called crossfit to stay in shape. I think I am in some of the best shape I have ever been. Life has just been bizarre lately. Alot of my friends have gotten married and I still feel as though I am spinnin my wheels and stuck in neutral. I am looking for that profound blast of light from the sky to hit me and show me what I am supposed to do when it comes to women but it never seems to happen. *sigh* So is life I guess...I'm wonderin more and more if this whole army thing was the best choice for me. I think it is mostly because I have done nothing but classes thus far and I feel like I have wasted 2 years of my life. Ryan seems like he has himself well set to do what it is he wants and I applaude that. In some ways I think I just feel like me leavin is gonna signal the end of the life I have always known. Parts of me wonder what happens when I go off to war. Will I come back different? Will I come back to a world that doesn't want me? Will I come back carrying my shield or on it? The last one I care the least about because I have zero control over that one. Guess when my guardian angels get tired of chasin me around it will happen. Heh, I was readin Angel's post about the lady at the post office saying she should have a BF and I agreed. I know it will happen eventually, just gotta find you that guy who fits ya. Oh I also liked the new costume Angel. You looked simply beautiful in it as always. Which brings up somethin....Ok I didn't think I was completely oogly but I went to Florida this past weekend I got zero looks from girls. Now I was down with my buddy Tom who girls seem to gravitate towards (oh goody another Philip!) but I saw girls talkin to some really strange lookin cats. I was amazed but oh well. Guess it is not my lot in life to have women drool over me. Kinda sucks though, would be nice :-). So anywho, this post has gotten long and completely random. I don't remember what the post was supposed to have in it nor do I know if I even came close to gettin it in the post. Oh well, will try again lata...

-Josh